B.A.N.N.E.D. (Barely Alive N Need Everything Deleted)

[paperboy]

Im trying to hold to my composure, seems like my lifes at a closeure
spend more time typing shit than im suppose to.
hopeful, cuz i lost my job and its getting thought out here
seems like it get better but just ruff every year
lost my first child to a miscarriage, a few months back
depression started creepin up, seems like its back
dropped outta college, too much drama, and bills that was all behind
started looking for problems at work and they werent hard to find
cussed out my boss, an employee, told them lets take it outside
i did give up smoking dough, guess thats why im alive
was living in a studio my lady left me in July
woke up one night cold drenched in sweat hoping that i would die
there was a leak in my studio gas company wouldnt do shit
they said you live on top of the meters so just get used to it
moved out broke my lease now they seek 3000 dollaz
fell behind on the car lease so they just keep on tryina call us
got back with my chick now we doing okay
she got hit by a dumb bitch, but she soing ok
my car bumper is fucked, my lady sees the chiropractor
got a ticket the same month but thats not my biggest factor
registartion just expired, license i lost that, car with no insurance
still i got lots of endurance..
best thing all year i finally got close to my mom
finally picked up the phone and proceeded to carry on,
all my fam is in texas im the only one in Cali
thats the path that i chose but fuck it i love Cali
seen my grandma since i was bout 12 for the first time on facebook chat
lost my grandpa earlier this year think it was a heart attack
he was 92 my grndma is 88, the other day i told my lady that she looked great
told her i dont wanna see life at 60, thats my cutoff date
spent last week at the ER my health wasnt so great
spent this week dealing with hate, i let people test my nerves,
snapped on social media probly to a buncha nerds
felt like deleting everything make sure nobody knows a thing
and spillin feelings on this here cuz nobody knows me except my kin
and one or two from facebook thats all ....im almost done
who knows what else comin up next im glad i dont own a gun
atleast im not sleepin in my car like i was last year
the VA keep askin me if i have PTSD but i dont make that clear
i never ever ask for help, im stubborn and fulla pride
if i offended you im sorry, just know that im still alive..

[DJ_BlackJack]

This should be on that Gangsta Walk instrumental by david banner 3 6 and 8ball MJG

peep game if ya want it, cause I GOT DAT INSTRUMENTAL

[Case7]

fam just posted a verse out of nowhere... that shit was mad depressing... keep grinding tho...